I Won’t Let You Take Me Down With the Ship
When I got out of prison three years ago, life was nothing like I’d expected. I had to learn how to deal with my “felon” label and adjust to life on probation. What made the situation even worse was my less-than-ideal living situation.
My boyfriend and I moved in together after my release. He’d stayed by my side for the four years I was behind bars, so it seemed to make perfect sense. But, within days, I realized I had made a bad decision.
Out of the Frying Pan…
In the years I was gone, he developed a serious drinking problem. Every night, he drank until he passed out on the couch. I found empty liquor bottles hidden in his closet and wine bottles in the fridge. To make matters worse, all his friends were big partiers. It seemed their favorite pastime was trying to get me to drink and ridiculing my decision to stay sober.
I lived in fear of a surprise visit from my probation officer. I was in a situation that threatened my sobriety and my freedom.
One day, after months of living in this toxicity, I went for a run and had an epiphany. Why was I living like this?
I was miserable and it was because I felt burdened by spending time with someone whose lifestyle wasn’t compatible with mine. I was sick of being in a relationship with someone who didn’t respect my choices and of his social circle. After all, “those” friends weren’t there when the steel door to my cell closed every night. They didn’t have a clue what I had been through, and thus, wouldn’t understand why it was so important to me to refrain from drinking.
Ultimately, my boyfriend and I broke up, I moved to a different state, and I found an entirely new group of friends. Today, I’m happier than I’ve ever been – all because I stayed strong, resisted the peer pressure and clung to the lifestyle I knew was right for me. And you know what? I’ve never looked back.
Self-Sabotage: Stop Standing in Your Own Way
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